UNHAPPY.. Today is a 'grey-ny' day..aikss.. what happen to me?! I have no idea what had happen to my mind..really sad, disappointed and so on.. When me flashback, I was always told my friends about that people who prefer create a blog to write his/her feeling was had many'heart problem'..Means that those people cannot find anybody to tell their problem. I was one of them, i guess.. I have many problem those I can't tell any 1 of my friend.. I do not mean that I was not believe in them, it just, I don't know how to tell them. I was very scared about when I tell to my friends, any1 of them, about my problem they will treat me like.. like.. a 'freak' even like a bad guy[something like that].. Therefore, I try to tell to my father God. HE really intelligent, sometimes he had give an easy way to help me to solve my problem, just I don't realize his appearance. Maybe I really don't know him well, I don't know how can I find the answer that he had give me long time ago.. I know the answer was waiting 4 me but sorry,I have no idea how to find it.. I hope it is temporary.. Therefore, I prefer to join the "alpha course" in Kelompong church in the end of January.. I wish I can find that i had lost. I wish I will know more about my father God. Besides, I know Jesus had make my life colourful like a rainbow, I had walk through 'happiness', 'disappointed','joyful','angry','envy','sad','crying','fear'...... I know, I know, many people are don't like me as well, but ME is ME! I won't do any changes for those guys who don't like me except there has some problem in my attitude. Last time, I was very care about people how to look at me. But what can I do ? Aikss.. I just can say sorry to all of those people who i had hurted their heart.. Really so confuse........ Arrrrrrr....
